Grabbed all these from my IG stories. Lots of food deliveries, and coffee. ╰(▔∀▔)╯

Hi, hello. How are you? So I feel like writing about what’s been happening in my life lately. A lot has been going on, and at the same time, nothing much changed. I honestly feel like I’m going through a period where I feel like I’m pretty much stuck in a rut. I feel tired. I’m so stressed. I’m having a Psoriasis flare-up. I’m itching all over. I get annoyed easily. I’m sick of being at home. I just miss being outside with my family and friends. Constant bad news from around the world is making me sad, angry, helpless. And there are just so many deaths. The number keeps growing every single day—deaths of a friend’s loved ones, friends of friends. It’s just so heartbreaking. We have wasted almost 2 years of our lives being stuck at home. The children should be playing outside, the youths should be in school, we are all should be doing things we want without any restrictions. I just hope we can all cope with all of the uncertainty right now. 

“But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, ‘All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion”

― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie: An old man, a young man, and life’s greatest lesson

Anyway, I just finished rereading Tuesdays with Morrie, and this quote really resonated with me. It was a very timely read. I know it’s hard to always be positive during this difficult time, but this one is a great reminder that it’s okay to feel all these. But that’s it, once you recognize these emotions, you detach from them. You step away. Move on. Easier said than done, right? But there’s no other way we can continue moving forward if we don’t let go. These are actually what I’m trying to tell myself every time I feel down. Not really easy, to be honest. It’s not like I can make all these negative emotions go away in a day, so I let myself swim with these negativities but also not let myself drown and be overwhelmed with them. And that’s what I’m trying to do now. 

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I also have this goal to reread all the books I have here with me when we moved and I already finished one. I also got my ordered books from Fully Booked today and I can’t wait to get my other pending order. I pre-ordered the new book of John Green (The Anthropocene Reviewed) and this book from a Korean author (Almond: A Novel). So yea, I’ve been wanting to get back into reading because it has been years since the last time I’ve been too engrossed in a book. I’ll start Kite Runner later! 

Also, here are random unimportant lists:

Finished:

• Books/Online Fanfic Stories: Chasing the Sun & Taming the Waves by inksteady (wattpad.com), Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
• Korean Series: Designated Survivor: 60 Days 
• English Movies: The Green Book, Whiplash, Last Letter From Your Lover
• French Movie: The Intouchables
• Japanese Series: Kotaro Lives Alone, Asuko March!, Legal V: Ex-Lawyer Shoko Takanashi, Border & Border Redemption

Bought:

• Greg mug & boob mug @midoridori_
• Albino mug & shokoy mug @bijincraft
• Pre-ordered an ili-lustration mug @ililikhaanceramics
• Curvy mustard cup @andy.studioph
• Pre-ordered another face mug @ioridori
• Maga (taupe) @bumi.and.ashe
• Mermaid mug @chineramics

Dates:

• Aug 3 – Celebrated Mama’s birthday. Stayed at my parents’ place for 3 days. I missed them! 
• Aug 13 – Got my Balance board (August incentive)! I also received a free milk tea from one of my workmates! 
• Aug 17 – My first quarterly review 
• Aug 20 – Tamtam’s birthday! He also gifted us a game, The forest. // Also my turn to report the accomplishment of my team during our EG Manila staff meeting and I also presented my family. It was nerve-wracking for me to present even if it was just virtual. So I’m really working on overcoming my fear of public speaking. So good job, self. (⁀ᗢ⁀)
• Aug 24 – Received my BIGBANG x Kwon Ji Yong CSE package kit. I also bought a BB phone case!!! VIP forever. Can’t wait for their comeback.