I guess this will be my late year-end post but you see, I am not really good at putting my thoughts into words so I’ll try to summarize how my 2020 went.

It was definitely a tough year. A hell year. I felt a lot happened and at the same time, nothing much happened. All the calamities, deaths, brutality, injustice, government incompetence we have had experienced pre and during this pandemic made us all mad. Being in a lockdown and quarantine for months didn’t help either. Everything suddenly came to a halt. We were all stuck and helpless, at one point. I, too, almost had a meltdown. I felt burdened, weary, and stressed.. and since I am not the kind of person who’s comfortable sharing my feelings, and showing my vulnerability, I tried so hard to juggle my emotions and everything at bay and that deserved a pat on the back. I’ve always been like this and I’m grateful for being able to endure everything and still remained sane after. I know that’s not the case for everyone so I just hope you guys are still there, fighting.

This year taught me to always be grateful for everything, and simply for being alive. We don’t know what lies ahead. We might be here today and gone tomorrow, and that shit is scary. The virus is still out there and I just hope that we all can be responsible citizens to survive this pandemic. Let’s all adjust to this new normal of wearing masks and face shields, and practicing social distancing. And I guess, for now, we’ll be alright.

List of the things I was looking forward to but COVID19:

• My aunt and cousin vacation from Germany to the Philippines – March
• One Ok Rock Concert – May 02
• Palawan, El Nido Trip – November
• More travel getaways, activities, and events

Things I’m grateful for:

• Loved ones, few friends who have stuck with me, my niece – Rosha Eve
• The simple things
• Good movies/series, good songs, good reads, good food, good coffee
• Online deliveries
• My job and work stuff I invested in (PC, work tables)
• Newfound hobby: Pottery
• My mugs/cups collection (started in August and now I have 43 mugs)
• Love-hate relationship with the internet/socmed
• Being healthy and alive!!

photos taken using instax during my holiday off. it was so nice to be back home and to have spent it with my family.